Psalm 16:6 is one of my favorite verses. Many years ago, even though I'd read that verse countless times, I REALLY read it as I never had before...like I'd never read it before...and I was madder than a wet hen! I verbally told the Lord, 'This is NOT true in my life!' I don't recall asking him to make it true. Maybe I did and maybe I didn't. But I felt that the lines had NOT fallen to me in pleasant places and CERTAINLY, my heritage was NOT beautiful to me! I felt 'ripped off' by the parents God had given me and lived the first 25 years or more of my life trying to overcome the deficits in my life which, in part, had been created by them and their self-absorption, which incapacitated them to love me or my sister much at all. I always felt she & I just 'happened.' We certainly weren't planned and didn't even seem wanted after we made our appearances. We were just another part of their droll paycheck-to-paycheck lives, which they didn't even enjoy with each other. They were married on paper only. There was no love in either of their hearts for the other.
Anyway, after expressing my anger to the Lord about this matter, some time passed. I really don't remember how much time passed. But, one day I was reading this psalm again, and I realized I was no longer mad about it! I could agree with the psalmist that the lines HAD fallen to me in pleasant places and that, indeed, my heritage WAS beautiful to me! WOW! Guess what? He hadn't changed where the lines had fallen and He didn't change my heritage...He changed ME! 'Therefore my heart is glad and my glory rejoices; My flesh also will dwell securely.' (which is verse 9 of the same psalm) Yes, in His presence is fullness of joy! (per verse 11)
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